Lions, Lambs, and Fools

March was a wonderful, terrible kind of month, which means more writing material than I could put in one post. While I’m glad to be back, taking the month of March off from blogging was a good plan. I’ve refilled my mental reservoir, wrangled with some writing demons, and have reoriented to continue my mission.

On the Domestic Front

I am celebrating 18 years of wedded bliss today. We’ve survived each other’s foibles and families and now we’re just watching each other deteriorate. But we’re still laughing and that’s not nothing. In a few years, when our daughter sets off on her own, we’ll be shuttling each other to doctor’s appointments and not speaking for hours on end because we’ve already said it fifty times before. We just need to wait a little longer until we’re more forgetful and it will all seem new again. Ah, the ties that bind.

canstockphoto1577266We’ve had another busy month with our in-house band. In addition to playing viola, violin, and piano, my daughter has decided to pick up saxophone. We should get a bulk discount for rental instruments and I should get some parenting points for letting sax happen. When I was 14, I was listening to Rick Springfield and playing Baroque music on my flute. My kid is playing Ellington and Dvorák and songs from Hamilton. I love how the internet has enabled us to experience a wider slice of the world.

Winter returned with a vengeance after a couple of false springs. We’re in for sub-freezing temps for the next week with a chance of middling depression.

Disconnects

In this episode of “free isn’t free”, I closed my Facebook account. I wasn’t using it, didn’t find it interesting, and finally stopped lying to myself about what professional tools I needed. I wasn’t much help to Cambridge Analytica. To make up for it, I just mailed all my critical data to the RNC and the Kremlin. Привет, Господин Путин.

canstockphoto12227677.jpgWhen The Atlantic hired Kevin Williamson last month, I cancelled my subscription. I’ve finally hit a wall with media entities that give platforms to every wingnut on the spectrum lest someone accuse them of being biased or they lose a market share. The defense for the hire is that his writing is great – if great means deliberately provocative. There are a lot of great writers and most of them don’t advocate that women who have abortions be hanged. Skill does not excuse malevolence.

I started digging into Twitter, trying to decide if I need that account out there, collecting dust. What I learned is that people feel very strongly about Roseanne Barr and like to pick on high school kids. I’m not sure that this is useful for me to know. I don’t watch evening television, nor do I care for celebrity fealty, a concept that baffles me on many levels. I’m still not sure if Twitter is particularly useful as anything but a distraction. I dusted it off, took a look, and put it back on the shelf until the next time.

Writing

I wrote more in the last month than I have in the last year. I also forced myself to submit an essay for a contest, only to be overtaken by the worst panic attack I’ve had in years. It led to a lot of soul-searching and I’ve gotten fierce about how I approach writing and my work process.

I finally finished Hillary Rettig’s The 7 Secrets of the Prolific: The Definitive Guide to canstockphoto5169727Overcoming Procrastination, Perfectionism, and Writer’s Block, spurred on by my disastrous attempt to submit work. There were moments in the book where I was gut-punched, as she accurately described my experiences as a writer. She also gave a lecture worth looking at, if any of these issues are yours. I don’t get writer’s block, but I do drive myself crazy with perfectionism and procrastination (which are blocks of my own design). She provided some very helpful insight.

While I’ve learned that every writer and their process is different, the key word is “process”. What is really happening with the writing? What are the habits and thought patterns that serve as obstacles? And holy shit, lady, can you please just write without editing for once? These are the tough questions I’ve been wrangling with in the quest to be more productive, creative, and successful.

Coming to a Blog Near You

canstockphoto7243840After my futile search for a book club aimed at writers, I’ve decided to set up one of my own online. I’ve been doing a lot of research on what might work and have put together a website, so look for a blog post announcement in the next week or so for the TGS Writers’ Book Club.

Happy April!

18 Comments on “Lions, Lambs, and Fools

    • This is always the teeth-gritting time of year – after the surprise of 50 degree days with sunshine, we don’t even know how to dress. I refused to shovel this week, despite getting several inches of snow. It will all melt… someday. Happy eventual spring!

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  1. Did I recommend Hillary Rettig’s book to you? I can’t remember, but I recommend that book a fair amount, so I might have. Hillary and I were classmates at the Clarion West SF writing workshop a long time ago. She’s especially good, I find, at quieting the “it’s too late” and “I’m too old” doubt monsters. And she’s a big advocate of self-publishing, with the point that it’s more empowering for authors. I’m not sure I agree 100% with that but it was good food for thought.

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    • That’s so interesting that you had a chance to work with her. I read her book regarding activism, so I think that’s how I found the other one. Her book has been extremely helpful, but I think her stance regarding traditional publishing is a tad dogmatic. Still, I feel immensely grateful for the other information and I think it will help me move things along. Another tool for the toolbox!

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      • Yes, some of her political stances are also a tad dogmatic for my taste, but like almost anything it’s a “take what you can use and leave the rest” situation. And there’s a lot there that you can use!

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  2. Glad to see you back Michelle. Sounds like you had a productive month off.

    I’m an editing fool also when I write. One blog post takes me three or four hours sometimes. Yikes. I know there’s a book in me, just don’t know if I care enough about it to buckle down and write it. Kind of like the thin woman living inside of me…

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  3. When The Atlantic hired Kevin Williamson last month, I cancelled my subscription. I’ve finally hit a wall with media entities that give platforms to every wingnut on the spectrum lest someone accuse them of being biased or they lose a market share.

    This is one of those moments when you have to look behind the curtain at the white haired gentleman pulling levers and twisting knobs. .

    The New York Times hired Bret Stephens. The Washington Post stole (my favorite writer) Megan McArdle from Bloomberg and TheAtlantic brought on David Frum and Kevin Williamson.

    What do they all have in common? They all despise Donald Trump with an almost indescribable passion.

    Each, with perhaps the exception of Megan McArdle, was in trouble with their former publications and needed a home before the run up to the 2018 elections, and beyond if the Democrats take the house.

    Yes, one could argue bias, diversity of opinion and market share – but I would lay a larger bet on the willingness to weaken the Republican base by keeping the NeverTrump hopes alive as Trump polls higher and higher in the approval column among Republicans (which has been happening over the last few months).

    Beyond that…. Damon Linker wrote a cautionary essay titled Liberals believe politics can be settled. They’re wrong. in The Week. It should be mandatory reading for anyone who considers themselves a Progressive.

    Here is how he ends the article

    History isn’t an arc slowly bending toward justice. It’s a battlefield on which a skirmish line shifts back and forth in an unending contest between ideological combatants. The agonistic character of politics becomes concealed during eras defined by consensus, when the skirmish line stays in much the same place, shifting only slightly or fairly slowly from year to year and decade to decade. But such eras are the exception in history — or at least never more than a temporary interlude between periods of more rapid or intense struggle.

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    • While I know the never-Trumper aspect is true, I’m done with provocateurs who act like toddlers in need of attention. Whether the hires be for political pipe dreams or mercenary financial moves, I don’t care. I’d like to shove every single one of them into a room where they can provoke and prevaricate and equivocate all day long at each other. I’m burnt out on the circus. All that’s left this year is the voting and I’ll show up then.

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